|Viv McMaster, thank you for making me look + feel beautiful at a time in my life when I simply don't generally feel it.|
I feel like I have so much to tell you - not so much about happy announcements, but more about the hard bits and pieces I've been working through lately, or make that all year.
I want to tell you that I've gained over 20 pounds, how the second I stopped breast feeding early last year, the pregnancy weight came back and I've been battling it for over a year now. I want to tell you how I can no longer walk around barefoot because my body aches with the extra weight and this in particular makes me sad. I want to tell you that I think I've reached my breaking point on this issue. I don't mind the curves really, but I definitely mind the lack of energy, the lack of general wellness, the comfort food eating habits, but mostly the energy. Totally depleted. That, and I barely recognize myself.
I am taking slow, mindful steps. I rode my green bike to work today, and I bought some bright pink tennis shoes. I went on a 21 day whole food cleanse and am in the process of radically changing my diet which means major meal planning and cooking - both new to me. I've never eaten so much kale and spinach in all my life. Really. And Zumba. I signed up for Zumba and sincerely look forward to flailing around and making a total fool of myself in the name of losing weight and having fun while doing it.
I've never been overweight. And now I most definitely am. I feel it with every single step. And I can see how this particular struggle is directly related to my not putting myself first - something I've been majorly struggling with since becoming a mom.
No diets for me. Just lifestyle changes. That's what feels right, feels healthy, feels necessary.
Part of me wants to start a Possibilitarian Weight Loss facebook group but I don't think I can manage anything extra on my plate right now (pun, intended). I just know that doing the things I never thought I could do - running many years ago, diving into art many years ago, creating a successful biz - could have never happened without the element of community.
OVER TWENTY pounds, friends. I'm curious what else I'll shed in the process of overhauling my life - feels like an important journey of discovery. That, and I really, deeply want full wellness in my life. My body is telling me something. I'm paying attention.
Do you guys have inspiring weight loss stories? Please share.....I'd sincerely love the inspiration as I know this must be a struggle for so many...and if you have any awesome wheat free, dairy free recipes, even better :)
Wish me luck...I'll keep you updated on the progress.